Finding Inner Strength

Hey guys! Sorry it’s been a while. I’ve been going through a really tough time lately, and yes, that tough time has affected my eating. I’ve always said I am human, a flesh and blood man who is not perfect. Well, I recently found out just how imperfect I am and it’s through that imperfection that I’ve been binge eating.

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Hey guys! Sorry it’s been a while. I’ve been going through a really tough time lately, and yes, that tough time has affected my eating. I’ve always said I am human, a flesh and blood man who is not perfect. Well, I recently found out just how imperfect I am and it’s through that imperfection that I’ve been binge eating.

I don’t know about you, but I have a demon inside me that tells me I’m not good and I should eat to keep away the realities of life. But recently, I found out how much power I had been giving that demon by living in my own morass of, well, stuff.

These demons are known by many of us. They are the ones that tell you you’re never going to be good enough, or thin enough or liked by people. They are the demons that tell you that this person or that person is better, maybe even because they are thinner than you or viewed as slightly more “attractive.” And these are the same demons that seem to control your car when you veer off-course and go to your favorite fast food purveyor to get a giant mega-optimal burger, gigantic order of fries and 92-ounce tankard of soda.

I am here today my friends to tell you this demon is getting its power from one thing – you.

Coming to grips with certain truths in my life has opened up a new understanding that honest-to-goodness truth is the thing that breaks through it all. That includes weight loss. Once you embrace that, the demon has no more power and it is one of the best feelings in the world. I do not feel compelled to get a pint of ice-cream anymore, or a candy bar. I don’t have the “need” for a snack. I drink more water because it’s refreshing (and the best thing for you) instead of grabbing a soda and I am satisfied with just one portion of food and not one augmented by “extras.”

I think I told you before, that when my mom died I gained back 20 pounds. Well, over a year later, I still had that weight. But thanks to finally facing things the way I should have, I am back down to having just 7 more pounds to go before re-achieving my goal weight. Most importantly, though, through this process I am becoming my mother’s son again – a son she can be very much proud of and not just because I’ve lost weight.

The road to weight loss for me was not a surgical one. I didn’t want that. It was a slow, steady and naturally progressive journey. It’s also the one thing I’ve done right in my life these past few years. I don’t know what you guys have going on in your lives but I’m with you. I truly am. We’re all just as human, and sometimes just as flawed, as one another. But we can support each other in all this, as I support you.

I’m here to tell you today that your demon will lose its strength when you get to what is really at the center of your true issues. When you do that, you will see that driving past fast food is easy. You’ll be excited about the prospect of doing well again and will see that demon wither and die because you had the strength to make it through to be the thinner and stronger person, both inside and out, that you’ve always wanted to be.

Blog written by Bill Larson
Bill Ivory Larson has lost a total of 175 pounds, without surgery or a special diet. In 2005, when he moved from Chicago to...