Ugh! Can I just tell you how much this time of year gets on my nerves?! Candy this and chocolate that. Halloween here, there and everywhere! It’s hard enough trying not to eat badly out here in the real world of weight loss and maintenance! Give a well-meaning fat guy a break! Going to the store around Halloween is torture – pure torture, plain and simple.
OK, I know I am the captain of my own body and nobody forces me to eat anything I don’t want to, but I also have some food addictions and among them is an addiction to chocolate. It all started when I was a kid growing up in Chicago. My mom loved (LOVED) plain chocolate bars. In fact, she introduced them to me and, of course, I fell in food-lust with them, too. As I grew older and enjoyed the trick-or-treat benefits of dressing up as my fave superhero or sci-fi character, I enjoyed many different kinds of chocolate – chocolate surrounding peanut butter, raisins, nuts, coconut, pretzels and more.
However, as my palate widened so did I.
Over the years I have tried many different candies and have been lucky enough to have enjoyed them from many different countries. One thing remains the same. I am still addicted to chocolate and have a weakness for it. UGH!
I have been doing my best recently to go to the store and shop for groceries to keep in the house in an effort to eat better, control portions and be healthier. That includes trying to grab snacks that are better. But as I went the other day what did I see? Halloween went and threw-up all over my local store! Displays of this here and that there – and I went to the store hungry (never a good thing)!
In my weight loss journey from 400 pounds to 225 pounds, I ate whatever I wanted. I just controlled portions better, ate less unhealthy stuff and exercised. But I am still on my journey and it’s hard when I am trying to maintain my current weight while fighting off the urge to have the small and seemingly harmless miniature version of the chocolate I love. I will always and forever enjoy the foods I want, (mainly so I don’t turn into a grumpy Wellness Warrior) but I must do well to keep those cravings in line – especially when there’s such an immediacy attached to them.
I also think it interesting as we, as a country, are trying to tackle the issue of childhood obesity, that Halloween still has such an influence on our eating and snacking choices. One of these days I am sure scientists will invent the foods promised to us in sci-fi movies – foods that have no calories but all the nutritional benefit we need. But until that day I just have to keep in mind one simple thing: I can’t, and shouldn’t, eat like a kid anymore. But as a former “fat kid” I can say, too, neither should kids. So parents, if your kids come to my place they may or not be happy with me because I’m going to try to find the healthiest treats possible. They may not be chocolate or sugar but they will be fun, enjoyable and at least a little bit better.