Knowing Where I Have Been

I have lifted my spirit out of the unhealthy world I once knew. I have created a new body in which to keep my spirit happier and healthier. Yet I still often slip back in my mind and think like the old me – then I look in the mirror and get confused seeing the new me staring back at me like a stranger.

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I have lifted my spirit out of the unhealthy world I once knew. I have created a new body in which to keep my spirit happier and healthier. Yet I still often slip back in my mind and think like the old me – then I look in the mirror and get confused seeing the new me staring back at me like a stranger.

Who am I really? My whole identity is so different.

I am still an artist inside. I am still creative, if only using my creativity for cooking instead of painting.

My career is shifting right along with my body and mind.

I'm reflecting on where I've been. Asleep for some time. Numb. Unaware.

Just merely existing. Happy? I thought so.

I want so much more for myself now.

I want to be free to travel, free to experience this new world in this new body.

Experience love in this body.

I don't know where I'm headed just yet, but I think if I stay true to myself and keep living and breathing in the present moment the answers will come.

I am here. Right here where I need to be.

In the middle of a path that leads to good things.

In just a few short days, I will be hosting my first “Get Bon” Retreat, sharing with strangers who have a common interest: to live healthier lives, to learn how to cook my recipes and to work out with me in the woods. This will be transformative for the guests as well as myself. This is where the path is leading me to. It's leading me to sharing my experiences with others. This is the good work I'm destined to do.

Blog written by Bonnie Matthews
At age 44, Bonnie decided to take control of her body and health. Despite having never exercised before, she lost 130 pounds the...