After almost 4 years of exercising and eating properly, I am definitely on autopilot. I know how I need to eat and know I must hit the gym 3 times a week. Most of the time, I make the right choices and do the right thing. But even when I am exercising and watching my calories, I sometimes feel that I am just going through the motions. I don’t always feel the same passion every day even when I’m doing well. But I guess that’s part of being human and I can easily say I am the type of person who wears my heart on my sleeve.
From my previous blogs you know my family is going through some stressful times now with Ed being out of work. I am sure that my stress level has something to do with these feelings. I am an emotional eater, and am trying to stay strong with my willpower and routine. There have been a couple of times where I didn’t really want to go to the gym, but I made myself go and I was glad I did afterwards. Sometimes they were good workouts and sometimes they were not, but that is how it always goes anyway. Some days you just push it more than others.
I will never go back to my old self, no matter how stressed I get. But every day can be a challenge, and sometimes you do feel like you are just going through the motions. I try to get myself back in the zone and will usually eat well most of the time. Summer weekends are very hard and can sometimes throw me off track. The key is not to let the weekend indulgence snowball into a week or more.
It is the easy to say that you are stressed when things are not going well at home; it becomes OK to eat the foods you would not normally eat. You still need to keep the big picture in mind and remind yourself that only hard work that got you here. The next time I am not working out without my usual vigor and feel like I’m just going through the motions, I need to remember I took the time to come to work out, so I might as well put my heart into it. Sometimes just getting there is half the battle.