Ed’s View: I really needed to face some old demons this week. It was a very trying week and it took a lot not to go back to the comforts of eating. As I have said before; we are human and are susceptible to temptations. For some of us, it is drinking, for others it is drugs, and for many it is food. While being addicted to drinking or drugs is very serious and life threatening, you do not need drugs or alcohol for survival. On the other hand, food is necessary for all of us. With the right balance of food and exercise we can live a healthy lifestyle. For some of us, if you take the drink or the pill or the sundae, it can lead to our own unraveling.
Eating food to excess is as dangerous as any substance abuse and can be life threatening as well. Thankfully I was able to get to the gym this week. I was able to keep my mind off the fast food and I felt better that I was able to get my workouts in with all the crazy stuff that was thrown at me.
We are human and are subject to emotions. While it is a journey to make a lifestyle change and continue the path, we can rely on the support of family and friends to help reduce the pressure when curveballs come our way. Learning to find that outlet is important to losing the weight and equally important to keeping the weight off. Finding that friend or family member to vent to is sometimes as important to getting to the gym. It’s better to open a conversation then to open the fridge door. It’s better to reach out to a friend that to reach for a piece of cake to calm your soul. Yes, it been a tough week but with determination, family, and friends, I was able to make it.
Terri’s View: I switched the order of the blog this week. Ed wrote his first and I’m going to feed off his ideas for a change. I know that I always need to reference food in some way. It has been a stressful week between a family member passing, a friend’s family member passing, a trip for me to NJ to help a family member in need, Ed helping a friend, and a much needed intervention – it has been a whopper!
Oh yeah, and let’s not forget that unemployment thing going on for the past 5 months. I have to come to terms with the fact my days as a stay at home mom are numbered. Women who choose to stay home are becoming a scarcity. It is more the norm now to have 2 working parents. Most families can no longer afford to have just the dad work, even if the mom wanted to stay home. So unfortunately, I will probably be joining the work force shortly.
But unlike my husband, who still hit the gym and ate well through this rough patch, I hand have been eating nonstop and without thought. I know this goes against all my blogs and everything I have worked so hard for, but as I am an emotional eater. I know that I will be mad at myself when I snap out of it, but I still choose to be self-destructive at times.
My blog last week was about staying positive; I am trying to practice what I preach. I am already mad at myself. I needed to buy a new pair of dress pants for a job interview, as my 10/12’s can no longer even come over my hips. I am the heaviest I have been in the past 2 years and do not feel sexy or good at all. It definitely shows in the way I’ve been dressing and my overall outlook and demeanor. When I’m feeling good and doing the right thing, I take the time to put some make-up on. I take the time to pick out an outfit with some matching jewelry. The way I’ve been feeling at the weight I am right now is just an overall blah.
I know compared to a size 26, I’m svelte even where I am now. But I have been in this new body for over 2 years and not getting into my clothes right now is making me feel as if I were back to that 26. I am hoping that this feeling is enough to motivate me to get back into the zone and my head fully in the game. I know I have worked too hard and come too far to let myself keep snowballing. I can’t keep blogging to you good people about health and wellness when I myself am having a rough go of it lately. But I guess that shows that no matter how far we have come and how much we may change our lives, it may only take some unwanted stress to let old habits creep back in. I am mad at myself for letting my weight go up too much without nipping it sooner. But as I have said in the past, you cannot change the past only the future. So here’s to a good workout tomorrow and good, clean eating – one day at a time.