Looking in the Mirror

How does an overweight person survive the stress of clothes shopping? When I was 16 years old, I went on a fad diet and lost about 100 pounds. I maintained this weight loss until I was married at the age of 19, and then started to put on the weight with my first pregnancy. As the years went by I just gained more weight. For 3 years of my life, I actually weighed 100 pounds and was about a size 3 in clothes. Yes, a size 3. I still have those size 3 jeans, they are the hipster kind. I loved shopping, looking at myself in the mirror and was a clothes addict. I actually enjoyed hearing people say to me, "You are so slim."

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How does an overweight person survive the stress of clothes shopping? When I was 16 years old, I went on a fad diet and lost about 100 pounds. I maintained this weight loss until I was married at the age of 19, and then started to put on the weight with my first pregnancy. As the years went by I just gained more weight. For 3 years of my life, I actually weighed 100 pounds and was about a size 3 in clothes. Yes, a size 3. I still have those size 3 jeans, they are the hipster kind. I loved shopping, looking at myself in the mirror and was a clothes addict. I actually enjoyed hearing people say to me, "You are so slim."  

   
After my weight gain, throughout the years, shopping for me has been something that I have dreaded. Trying on clothes and finding that they did not fit the way that they should was frustrating. Having to actually look at myself in the mirror was almost, if not more stressful, then trying on clothes. When I tried on clothes and they didn't fit properly and I had to try on a bigger size, it brought me to tears. I would cry in the dressing room and end up going home with no new clothes. I finally avoided going shopping altogether just to save myself the disappointment.

I then started to order my clothes online so I could try them on in the privacy of my home. My wardrobe became very limited and blah. I wore either black or brown. You can say that my perception of my body image was extremely low and I avoided the mirror as much as I could. The mirror was not my friend.

Since I started my journey to wellness in February many things have changed. One of them is my attitude about clothes shopping. I recently went shopping and was pleasantly surprised to see that I am now down 2 clothing sizes. Clothes are starting to fit more comfortably, and I am actually starting to acquire a waist. I looked in the mirror and I saw a woman who loves who she is right now. The mirror is no longer my enemy but my friend.

The clothes that I bought on my recent shopping spree are bright colors, not the drab blacks and browns that dominated my former wardrobe. I love getting dressed up and take pride in how I look. I am feeling pretty again and what a wonderful feeling.

For anyone who has been avoiding shopping, set a date to go shopping yourself or with a friend and pick out some brightly colored fashionable clothes that fit you comfortably. Wearing brightly colored fashionable clothes will make you feel good about yourself. Wasting time "covering up" or wearing dull and boring colors makes you feel dull and boring. Also, take a good look into the mirror and smile. You need to love yourself for who you are right now as all will fall into place. You are beautiful! Please share your journey with me at Riare43a@aol.com, as I love hearing from you!

Weekly Menu: 

Sunday and Wednesday: whole grain pizza with veggies

Monday and Thursday: baked chicken with white beans

Tuesday and Friday: ground turkey and eggplant (see recipe below)

Saturday: grilled tilapia with asparagus

I love to make this recipe for the summer because all the ingredients are cooked in one skillet.  Easy, simple, healthy and delicious.

I always double the recipe and place 1/2 servings in plastic bags for future dinners!

Ground Turkey/Chicken and Eggplant Skillet Recipe

(Skillet della carne tacchino/pollo e della melanzana)

Ingredients

Serving size: 1 cup

1 lb ground turkey/chicken

2 cloves garlic, minced

1 eggplant, peeled and cubed

1 green pepper, sliced

1 onion, sliced

2 cups tomatoes

1 can stewed tomatoes

1/2 tsp salt

Dash of pepper

4 fresh leaves of basil

1 tsp fresh oregano

1 cup brown rice, cooked and set aside

Directions

Brown ground turkey/chicken and garlic and discard garlic. Add eggplant; stir and cook 10 minutes. Add remaining ingredients. Cover and simmer 25 minutes, stirring occasionally. Serve over brown rice.

Blog written by Maria Osnowitz
I am 54 years old, married, and the mother of two grown children. I have been unemployed since June of 2009, and since then have...