I am at the halfway point and my baby is the size of a mango. It weighs about 11 ounces and is a little over 6 inches long! At my last appointment, I found out that my total weight gain up to this point has only been 3 pounds. During my first trimester, I put on no weight at all. Most days I felt ill and exhausted. Lately, I've been hungrier than a hippo. I do go again this Monday for another doctor’s visit and a date with the dreaded scale.
This pregnancy has been different for me in every way than my first one. The last time I wrote I was craving Tom yum soup, but now my brain and gut seem to be gravitating towards fettuccine alfredo or a steak fillet. I am insatiably hungry and am struggling mentally with the cravings that my body is having. With Benaiah, I literally could have eaten spinach and blueberries and I would have stayed on cloud 9. It has been very hard for me to crave foods that are not normally part of my daily diet.
I have a renewed heart for those of you out there that may be fighting addictions to foods that you really desire to give up. This becomes a battle of the wills during pregnancy according to You: Having a Baby. My body is turning off the signals that curb hunger and revving up the hormones that drive my appetite.
The miracle of the life that is growing inside of me helps to keep me encouraged. We went for our ultra-sound last week and saw the 4 chambers if our tiny baby's heart, 2 kidneys, beautiful moving hands and feet, 2 lips and truly a perfectly healthy, blessed baby. The icing on the cake was finding out that we are having a baby girl! Dan and I are so excited to have another child and I wish she knew how much we already love her. I am humbled and grateful for the blessing of life. Despite my hardships mentally dealing with weight gain and insane cravings, I would gratefully accept all that comes along with pregnancy to experience the joy of holding this new bundle in my arms. I'm halfway there!