Roller Coaster Tears

What has excess weight robbed from you? For me, it was something simple like not being able to fit into a booth at restaurants. The other end of the spectrum held captive thoughts such as, “I may never be able to have a child of my own.” Amy, the girl I am coaching, wrote a blog of her own recently that really spoke to me and rang true deep within me. She grew up in Orlando where there are theme parks at every turn. She LOVES to ride roller coasters. The thrill and fear of all the turns and dips are among her favorite things. Until the fear of not being able to fit in the seat or harness began to stop her from visiting theme parks all together. Amy wrote,” I remember it vividly. At first, I would have to be moved to the larger seats in the middle of the coaster, which often meant being pulled to the side by the attendant and waiting for the next car. Then, it got to the point where it didn’t matter where I sat, I just simply didn’t fit. It was humiliating. I finally just started making excuses for why I wasn’t going to ride. I’m sure my family could see through the excuses, but they never pushed me.”

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What has excess weight robbed from you?  For me, it was something simple like not being able to fit into a booth at restaurants.  The other end of the spectrum held captive thoughts such as, “I may never be able to have a child of my own.”  Amy, the girl I am coaching, wrote a blog of her own recently that really spoke to me and rang true deep within me. She grew up in Orlando where there are theme parks at every turn. She LOVES to ride roller coasters.  The thrill and fear of all the turns and dips are among her favorite things. Until the fear of not being able to fit in the seat or harness began to stop her from visiting theme parks all together.  Amy wrote,” I remember it vividly. At first, I would have to be moved to the larger seats in the middle of the coaster, which often meant being pulled to the side  by the attendant and waiting for the next car.  Then, it got to the point where it didn’t matter where I sat, I just simply didn’t fit. It was humiliating. I finally just started making excuses for why I wasn’t going to ride.   I’m sure my family could see through the excuses, but they never pushed me.” 


As I read her words, I began to remember vividly some of those very same scenarios.  Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I sat there recalling all the things that I couldn’t and didn’t do in my 20s because of my size.  I’ll never forget sitting on the plane ride with Dan heading off on our honeymoon, I sat in the airplane seat and tried sucking in, squishing, pushing and jamming the seatbelt to get myself to fit within its parameters. I was inches from it even meeting the latch. There I was, embarrassed beyond belief as my new husband had to ask the stewardess for an extra attachment. I was mortified. How sexy could it have been having your bride unable to fit into an airplane seat? Dan never said a word, I’m sure he knew how I felt, but looked at me so lovingly despite myself.  The things emotionally, physically and socially that my weight barred me from doing were extensive. 


I will never forget.  Those are the things that fuel my fire and passion today.  Literally, playing outside with my son and being able to actually catch him and throw him in the air is priceless.  I have regained so much that was taken.  Amy concludes her blog by sharing that she indeed was able to fit into one of her favorite rides again.  She boldly states, ”By the end of the ride I was fighting back tears!  It had been so long since I’d experienced the thrill and rush of a coaster.  It was such an accomplishment!! I don’t think I have fully comprehended everything I’ve allowed my weight to take from me.  But, I plan on taking all of them back and then some!” 


Take back for yourself those things that you love that have been robbed from you!  Enjoy life and all it richness!

Blog written by Nancy Schuessler
Nancy's strong desires to live a healthy lifestyle and become a mother lead her on an extraordinary journey to reprogram her body...