Time is marching on and things are happening quickly with my divorce and my move from Connecticut to Tampa, FL. I have a new start and it’s exciting and challenging! I refuse to ask for financial help, so I’ve been busting my butt working everyday of the week with no days off until I move on August 28th.
I’ve been hearing a lot of judgment, opinions, and criticism from everyone during this whole process. No matter what others say or do, I’ve learned how to be strong through it all and not let others decide what’s right for me. This is my life and I live it my way. I’m responsible, hard working, healthy, confident and stronger than I’ve ever been, inside and out!
Sure, many have jumped to conclusions without even asking me what’s up, and that’s OK. The truth is that sometimes others are more afraid of the change than you are.
My two oldest girls are out of high school and working full time jobs and my youngest has chosen to stay with my ex in CT. This was her choice and she can change her mind whenever she wants. We will honor her decision, but she will be flown down to Florida every 3 weeks for a visit. That’s part of the mandatory budget as my children are and always have been my top priority. I know I actually spoiled them too much, which lead to some difficult times, but we worked through them and will continue to address anything else that may come up.
I knew I was doing something right when my oldest moved out about a month ago. It was early in the morning and she was packing her stuff up. I went into her room and she was crying. I hugged her tight and even though I knew it was time to let her fly, I told her through all the good and bad I wouldn’t have changed a thing. We cried as we hugged and though it was brief, I knew in that moment that I had done the best I could as a mom. I told her that I knew I had dreamed her into life, but there’s always a time to let others fly.
Finally, a shout out to my ex! I’m thankful for the 14 years we had together, the good and bad times. We have grown apart in many ways, but as we agreed upon, we will remain friends forever, no matter how much distance lies between us. I think we confuse people sometimes because our divorce is such a smooth one, always keeping communication lines open about the girls, finances and living situations. Thank you, Shane, for letting me fly in style.
It started with weight loss, getting healthy and discovering whom I really am inside and out. Now, for the first time in my life, without dictation from others, I will fly my way soaring higher than ever on my life’s journey! I’m sad for some of what I will leave behind, but what I’ve learned is that you have to listen to what lies within. Time for me to fly!